I don't know what to say.  Everything I think of either sounds like an attempt to justify myself, or asking for forgiveness that I don't deserve.  You trusted me, and I repaid that by attacking you. God!  How fucked up is that?  Do you know what's the worst thing, though? The part of this debacle that shames me the most?  It's that I can't manage to truly regret it.  I regret breaking your trust, and I'm sickened  that I've... victimized you the way I did. There's a part of me though, that only regrets that I was interrupted.

I have no words to express just how ashamed I am of myself right now. 


-Dean